Early in the morning, in the HCM class, Minyi told me something about her granma. She said, her granma was admitted to the hospital the night before. Heart problem, if I'm not mistaken. Sitting at the class, at first, I thought that the incident didn't affect her much. Minyi looked so strong when she was telling me roughly about what had happended. After telling me all that, she and I started to crap about other things. At that moment, I truly didn't thought and knew that behind all the smile, jokes and humour, was a heart filled with pain and fear.
It was until the big gang of us went to the restaurant opposite Mama's Kitchen to have our lunch. Minyi and I sat next to each other, as usual. Minyi started to text to someone with her handphone, so do I. I ordered a plate of Nasi Lemak and a cup of Ice Lemon Tea for Minyi as she didn't want to take any food. I started to enjoy my lunch while Minyi started to tell me something.
"What will you do when your love ones leave you?", she started to ask.
I remained silent and just looked into her eyes.
"Do people in comma actually know or listen to things that you tell to them?", this girl asked another question.
This time, I answered, "Yea, they do know that we're telling them. They listen. Trust me. Try talk to her when you go to the hospital later." Minyi was going to the hospital after the lunch.
"What should I say to her? I don't know what to say.."
Her eyes were getting red, she nodded her head down.
The other people of our gang were busy with their own conversations and food, none of them noticed the changes of Minyi's facial expression. I stood up, grabbed Minyi's arm and said, "Come on, let's sit somewhere else." I took a peice of tissue paper and both of us walked to one of the corridor nearby. We sat down at some place, and I passed the tissue paper to her. Her tears was running down from her eyes, but it was not those terrible cry which girls usually do so. Minyi was strong, I guess. And, I knew, she wished to be strong too.
Sitting there, Minyi started to tell me things about her granma. She said, she seldom talk to her. She likes her because she always give her money.
"No one would give me RM50 any more if she gone.", Minyi was smiling fake when she said this.
It was only joking, I knew. Minyi loves her because she was granma, that granma who loves her much. Minyi also told me that everyone in her family cried when they entered the ICU one by one at the hospital yesterday. She tried so hard to control the tears when she saw her granma was lying on the bed with all the machine attached to her, but she failed. She cried. She was in fear. She was afraid that her granma will leave her.
"I knew when the time come, I would have to accept the truth and learn from it. It will be tougher when it comes to the time for our parents." As I mentioned, this friend of mine was truly strong.
BUT... The word, "parents" suddenly bothered me for a short moment.
"What will I do when the time has come for my parents to go in the future..", I asked myself. I then tried to imagine and figure out what would be the feeling of losing your own parents. At that very moment I was so depressed that I nearly cried in front of Minyi. But I didn't. I pulled back the tears. Hate to cry in front of anyone; hate to show my weaknesses to others. This is a kind of egoism, one of the traits in my personality, I guess.
After all the moment of talks, Minyi finally looked much better. Before joining back the gang of people at the restaurant, Minyi asked, "What can I do for her?".
"Pray. Pray for her. Somehow, it will be useful. Human mind is powerful. Think postively and things will go in its way." I answered.
That's what I strongly belive in: You're what you think.
Then, at around 1.30pm, our gang went back to the college while Minyi went to the corridor near Secret Recipe to wait for her "driver".
"Take care", I told Minyi before leaving.
The story between Minyi and her granma makes me realise: The bond between two can be very strong, yet fragile. As we would never know what is coming up tomorrow, we should always appreciate those who you love and those who love you. Appreciate those who are connected to you. Do not ever leave any chance for being regreted for self at anytime. And, one should always appreciate ownselves as well. Love yourself before you learn to love others.
With love,
Yin Foong.
**According to Minyi,her granma is now fine and in better condition.
Thank God :)
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