the Self

this Friday, i went to the HMC leadership camp at the Trolak resort in Perak. It was a very nice place for leadership camp. And i think that they treated us as pigs as they served us food every 2 hours...-.-''' The activity that impressed me was the SOLO DROP. It simply means solo=alone + drop=being left. So, we were left alone in a jungle at night for a period of time which i dont no how long was it as we were not allowed to bring anything with us. As you know, it was very torturing if you were asked to stand at there without moving to another place. So my only choice was to talk to the tree when i was really bored.=.='''' Of course, i did not do so. ( what if i heard any voice replied my conversation??-.-''') But, i nearly fall asleep as the environment is soooo comfortable. what excited me was I SAW FIREFLIES!!! Seriously, i never see a firefly in my lifetime. It was really very very small and u won't notice them if you did not see carefully.

Ok, after so many BLA BLA BLA, let's talk about what i had learnt from this activity. I actually got to know myself more .It was a perfect time and place for self-reflection. When i settled down and without being fear for I might be attacked by 'something' and captured by orang asli, my mind was very clear. And a question just poped up in my mind which i thought i had solved it long long ago. It made me realised that i did not solve it but ignored it at the past. I was very shocked and disappointed to myself. According to miss Debbie, the first person that comes into your mind when you are in that situation is the most important person to you or is troubling you. It was sad to know that the person is not my family member. I always thought that my family takes the most important place in my heart. I felt quite lost when ms Debbie was doing the briefing after our solo drop. i felt very uneasy when something is out of my control. I realised that i actually do not know about myself!!! OH... maybe i shall talk to myself several times a day...hahaha-.-''' this makes me realise the importance of intracommunication because it was freaking scary when you realised that the mind and soul that you have been living with for 18 years are something that you do not know.